October 2011
weight loss to date:82 lbs in 9 1/2 months
Well, things are going better now that I got back on an eating plan. I went back to writing down all of my calories to better track it and lost 4 lbs the first week. I am getting so close to "one-derland" and losing 100 lbs total. Now I think I need to start dealing with some of the emotional stuff that comes along so I can kick some butt.
I have really been struggling to learn to love myself for who I am and not always second guess myself. I get frustrated when I can't do something right the first time, I don't know if I will ever look in the mirror and see anything but the heavy girl I was, I always think people are going to hate me if I say/do the wrong thing. I know we all have these things too, but I just can't seem to let myself enjoy this new life I have. I want to know that I worked hard and love myself for who I am. Oh well. I know it will come with time. So, until I can see myself the way God sees me, I will pray and know that He loves me just the way I am!
That's all for now. Only 5 lbs to "one-derland"!!! So, off to work out I go!!
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Ups, downs and a little bootcamp in between
weight loss to date:79 lbs
After getting so sick for a couple weeks, I finally got back on track this week. I even stepped up my workout routine with another Zumba class on Wednesdays and I joined bootcamp at the gym. I went in to bootcamp last Saturday as nervous as I have ever been and not really sure what to expect. I still struggle with the complex that I am and always will be the "fattest person everywhere I go". So, I went in thinking just that. While I was the biggest person there, I decided that I am not a quitter and I was going to push as hard as I could. Bootcamp is no joke. I was doing some exercises that I see on Biggest Loser and think, "Ha, I could never do that!" Never say never people!! I felt pretty good when I left, but still had that feeling that I probably looked like a total idiot because I am still so heavy. When I saw our boot camp instructor on Tuesday she totally made my whole week. She said she was so impressed with how hard I worked and had never seen anyone come to their first bootcamp and push it like I did. I went back this morning and I feel pretty great right now. I did get really frustrated though, because there were some exercises that I couldn't do. That just irritates the crap out of me!! I am the kind of person who has to be able to do everything I try and I have to do it right the first time. So, when I can't do something it pisses me off. So, I am going to practice that dumb exercise all week until I get it right!!!!
Anyway, I have had a lot of ups and downs on the scale the last few weeks. I am getting really frustrated because the weight doesn't come off as fast now as it did in the beginning. I think I just need to be more focused on better food choices and lots of workouts. I am only one pound away from 80 lbs lost total and about 9 lbs away from "one-derland". I get so upset when the scale doesn't read what I want. I guess I just have to learn to let go and just focus on being healthy.
I do have one more positive thing to share before I go. Last week a friend posted a picture saying she lost 41 lbs. I was so excited and wrote to tell her how proud I was and her response back made me cry. She said I was a huge inspiration to her and she started running because she saw that I was doing so well at it. That was a great feeling! Have a fantastic week everyone!!
After getting so sick for a couple weeks, I finally got back on track this week. I even stepped up my workout routine with another Zumba class on Wednesdays and I joined bootcamp at the gym. I went in to bootcamp last Saturday as nervous as I have ever been and not really sure what to expect. I still struggle with the complex that I am and always will be the "fattest person everywhere I go". So, I went in thinking just that. While I was the biggest person there, I decided that I am not a quitter and I was going to push as hard as I could. Bootcamp is no joke. I was doing some exercises that I see on Biggest Loser and think, "Ha, I could never do that!" Never say never people!! I felt pretty good when I left, but still had that feeling that I probably looked like a total idiot because I am still so heavy. When I saw our boot camp instructor on Tuesday she totally made my whole week. She said she was so impressed with how hard I worked and had never seen anyone come to their first bootcamp and push it like I did. I went back this morning and I feel pretty great right now. I did get really frustrated though, because there were some exercises that I couldn't do. That just irritates the crap out of me!! I am the kind of person who has to be able to do everything I try and I have to do it right the first time. So, when I can't do something it pisses me off. So, I am going to practice that dumb exercise all week until I get it right!!!!
Anyway, I have had a lot of ups and downs on the scale the last few weeks. I am getting really frustrated because the weight doesn't come off as fast now as it did in the beginning. I think I just need to be more focused on better food choices and lots of workouts. I am only one pound away from 80 lbs lost total and about 9 lbs away from "one-derland". I get so upset when the scale doesn't read what I want. I guess I just have to learn to let go and just focus on being healthy.
I do have one more positive thing to share before I go. Last week a friend posted a picture saying she lost 41 lbs. I was so excited and wrote to tell her how proud I was and her response back made me cry. She said I was a huge inspiration to her and she started running because she saw that I was doing so well at it. That was a great feeling! Have a fantastic week everyone!!
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Dirty Girl 2011
Saturday was the Dirty Girl Mud Run I have been waiting for!! This is what all of my hard work was for (well sort of). My week leading up the the Dirty Girl was not exactly what I pictured though. Monday I woke up feeling like a truck ran me over and my throat felt like someone stabbed me with a pencil. After making it through what seemed like the longest day EVER, I went in for a Strep test. Lucky me...it was positive. So needless to say, I spend Monday night, all day Tuesday and Wednesday morning curled in a tiny ball on my couch. The doctor restricted all working out for the week and was pretty ticked off when I told him I had to do this race. So, against what I wanted, I rested all week long. In the end, it was the best choice for me.
The DGMR was the most amazing thing I have ever done. I thought I was going to go into this wanting to run the whole thing and try to beat everyone. But, it wasn't like that at all. My teammates were so wonderful and we did every single event together. My favorite obstacle was the big mud pit at the end of the race. It was awesome to have Matt and our teammates families there cheering us on. As they were chanting for us to jump in the mud, I got so excited that I just went full force! I ended up smacking my knee on the bottom and now I have a few scrapes. Let me just say...I love them!! They are my "battle wounds" LOL!! I did all of the obstacles with the exception of the 8 ft wall. I got up on the first step and totally freaked out. I am not too worried about it, but I will do it next year.
Yep, you read that right! Dirty Girl Mud Run is a go for 2012 and I AM SO THERE!!! I know my original teammates will be there and I am excited to see if we can bring in a new group to join the shenanigans.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Sick of hitting the wall, but excited for where God is leading me
Weight loss to date: still 72 lbs.
I guess the good news is that I haven't gained any weight, the bad news is that I hit another stupid plateau. I am not really worried about it, but it annoys me that I am working really hard and keep flat lining. So, this week I decided that I am going to quit drinking Diet Coke unless we go out to eat. I have a serious addiction to that stuff, it's just not right! lol I think it went really well and I only had Diet Coke if we went out (which was only over the weekend). The great thing for me was that I was drinking a ton of water and felt less tired. So my new goal is to start this week with no more Diet Coke at all. I didn't get in as much exercise as I was hoping this week. The heavy rain really put a stop to evening runs for 2 days. But, this is a new week and I am ready for a new challenge!! I am going to try and get to Zumba Tues, Wed, and Thurs. I am also going to try to run another 5K distance on Monday and a short run with Matt before Zumba on Wednesday.
This coming Saturday is the Dirty Girl Mud Run 5K. I am pretty excited to get out there and see what this is all about. I feel pretty confident that I will be able to do all of the obstacles and running. My team is pretty awesome. My friend that I used to teach with at Webster is on my team, and friend from church and a new friend that I haven't met yet. I think we will rock it!!
I have been praying a lot lately about using my weight loss journey to help other women. I know God is calling me to use this part of my life to minister to other women, I am just not sure how or what he will lead me to. At my Zumba class this week I was able to talk to two women about my journey and give them some tips and tricks. One of the ladies said "Oh well I've lost 11 lbs, but that's not much". Are you kidding me?? That is the start of something great! It was so great to give her encouragement and ideas to help her keep going. So for those of you reading this, please pray that God will show me his plans for this and that I will be a faithful servant that follows wherever he leads!
I guess the good news is that I haven't gained any weight, the bad news is that I hit another stupid plateau. I am not really worried about it, but it annoys me that I am working really hard and keep flat lining. So, this week I decided that I am going to quit drinking Diet Coke unless we go out to eat. I have a serious addiction to that stuff, it's just not right! lol I think it went really well and I only had Diet Coke if we went out (which was only over the weekend). The great thing for me was that I was drinking a ton of water and felt less tired. So my new goal is to start this week with no more Diet Coke at all. I didn't get in as much exercise as I was hoping this week. The heavy rain really put a stop to evening runs for 2 days. But, this is a new week and I am ready for a new challenge!! I am going to try and get to Zumba Tues, Wed, and Thurs. I am also going to try to run another 5K distance on Monday and a short run with Matt before Zumba on Wednesday.
This coming Saturday is the Dirty Girl Mud Run 5K. I am pretty excited to get out there and see what this is all about. I feel pretty confident that I will be able to do all of the obstacles and running. My team is pretty awesome. My friend that I used to teach with at Webster is on my team, and friend from church and a new friend that I haven't met yet. I think we will rock it!!
I have been praying a lot lately about using my weight loss journey to help other women. I know God is calling me to use this part of my life to minister to other women, I am just not sure how or what he will lead me to. At my Zumba class this week I was able to talk to two women about my journey and give them some tips and tricks. One of the ladies said "Oh well I've lost 11 lbs, but that's not much". Are you kidding me?? That is the start of something great! It was so great to give her encouragement and ideas to help her keep going. So for those of you reading this, please pray that God will show me his plans for this and that I will be a faithful servant that follows wherever he leads!
Sunday, August 28, 2011
70 down...30 to go!
Weight loss to date:72 lbs.
Well, I am a little over seven months into this journey and I have hit my 70 lb weight loss mark. My goal is to be down 100 lbs by Jan. 10,2012. That will be my year mark. I was really worried that I would plateau again after going back to work, but I lost over 6 lbs in the first 7 days back with kids. I just find that I am so tired when I get done at work, I lose motivation for the gym and running. I really have to force myself to get out and do it. I know this is just a part of adjusting, and I am sure it will get better.
I am keeping up with both Zumba and running. I am currently trying to get to Zumba 3 times a week and I am trying to get at least 4-5 runs in a week. Yesterday when Matt and I went out running I ran my fastest mile ever. I ran it in 11:14. My goal is to get down under 11 minutes. I am finding that the more I run, the faster and easier it gets. We are less than a month from the Dirty Girl 5K. I am excited and know it will be a great accomplishment. I am going to try and hit up the 1K loop at Memorial Park a few more times to get an actual 5K run in. I did it a few weeks ago and it felt amazing to say that I did it.
I am noticing at work that being 72 lbs lighter makes a big difference. I notice that I can keep up with the kids more and when I sit on the floor with them it's soooo much easier to get up. A few of my kids from past years told me I look really different. I am only 16 lbs away from weighing 199. When that day comes I know I will be doing a great happy dance!!!!! For those of you following me, please pray that I stay motivated and keep my focus on getting into "One-derland"!
Thank you for all of the support and well wishes you all give me. You make me feel great and I know that you are cheering me on. Love you all!!
Well, I am a little over seven months into this journey and I have hit my 70 lb weight loss mark. My goal is to be down 100 lbs by Jan. 10,2012. That will be my year mark. I was really worried that I would plateau again after going back to work, but I lost over 6 lbs in the first 7 days back with kids. I just find that I am so tired when I get done at work, I lose motivation for the gym and running. I really have to force myself to get out and do it. I know this is just a part of adjusting, and I am sure it will get better.
I am keeping up with both Zumba and running. I am currently trying to get to Zumba 3 times a week and I am trying to get at least 4-5 runs in a week. Yesterday when Matt and I went out running I ran my fastest mile ever. I ran it in 11:14. My goal is to get down under 11 minutes. I am finding that the more I run, the faster and easier it gets. We are less than a month from the Dirty Girl 5K. I am excited and know it will be a great accomplishment. I am going to try and hit up the 1K loop at Memorial Park a few more times to get an actual 5K run in. I did it a few weeks ago and it felt amazing to say that I did it.
I am noticing at work that being 72 lbs lighter makes a big difference. I notice that I can keep up with the kids more and when I sit on the floor with them it's soooo much easier to get up. A few of my kids from past years told me I look really different. I am only 16 lbs away from weighing 199. When that day comes I know I will be doing a great happy dance!!!!! For those of you following me, please pray that I stay motivated and keep my focus on getting into "One-derland"!
Thank you for all of the support and well wishes you all give me. You make me feel great and I know that you are cheering me on. Love you all!!
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
one goal down...more to go
Weight loss to date: 68lbs
Many of you facebook friends already saw this, but I actually RAN a whole 5K this past week. Matt and I went to Memorial Park, to the 1K loop. Initially I only planned to run 3 laps around. Somewhere during the 3rd lap I got a second wind and decided that was the day to try and run (with no walking breaks) the 5K distance. I am not gonna lie and say it was easy, because my legs felt like they were on fire!! I thought I was gonna have to crawl to the car after. LOL! But, I am feeling pretty amazing knowing I conquered one of my major goals. I initially wanted to conquer this by mid September, so I am ahead of the game. My new goal is to keep running the 5K distance and just work on improving my time. I finished in 40 minutes the first time, so I would like to be able to do it in 37 minutes or less by the Diabetes 5K on September 10th.
In other news(ha ha), I found that going back to work was more exhausting than I thought it would be. It does feel great to be up moving around so much though. I try to stick to a routine of going to the gym/Zumba/water aerobic at least 5 times a week and running the same. I am finding that these workouts are great stress relievers for me. I just focus on what I need to be doing and let eveything else go. I am hoping to be down to my 70lbs lost goal by the end of this week!! Stay tuned....
Many of you facebook friends already saw this, but I actually RAN a whole 5K this past week. Matt and I went to Memorial Park, to the 1K loop. Initially I only planned to run 3 laps around. Somewhere during the 3rd lap I got a second wind and decided that was the day to try and run (with no walking breaks) the 5K distance. I am not gonna lie and say it was easy, because my legs felt like they were on fire!! I thought I was gonna have to crawl to the car after. LOL! But, I am feeling pretty amazing knowing I conquered one of my major goals. I initially wanted to conquer this by mid September, so I am ahead of the game. My new goal is to keep running the 5K distance and just work on improving my time. I finished in 40 minutes the first time, so I would like to be able to do it in 37 minutes or less by the Diabetes 5K on September 10th.
In other news(ha ha), I found that going back to work was more exhausting than I thought it would be. It does feel great to be up moving around so much though. I try to stick to a routine of going to the gym/Zumba/water aerobic at least 5 times a week and running the same. I am finding that these workouts are great stress relievers for me. I just focus on what I need to be doing and let eveything else go. I am hoping to be down to my 70lbs lost goal by the end of this week!! Stay tuned....
Monday, August 8, 2011
Some Random thoughts on my journey
weightloss to date:65 lbs.
I am feeling a little irritated tonight and I don't know why. So I figured if I write some random thoughts I would feel better. I don't think I am irritated about my journey, but if I don't regain focus it will hinder what I am trying to do. So, Matt and I went for a long run tonight. We are up to 2.5 miles on our neighborhood runs. I am pretty excited about how far we are running now. I just wish I could get my legs to move a little faster. I figure if I just get out there and push as much as I can, my times and distances will get much better. I am not really gonna stress over it. I started running the second week in June, and could barely make it through a 30 second run, and now I am running 2.5 miles. I feel like I have made some pretty good progress. According to my run tracker, I have logged 41 miles since the beginning of July.
My weight loss is going pretty well. I am happy that I was able to kick my plateau and continue losing. My goal is to be in "One-derland" by the Dirty Girl race in September. "One-derland" is being at a weight anywhere in the 100's. I know it seems silly but that will be an amazing feeling for me. Once I hit 199lbs, I will have lost 88 lbs altogether. I am at 222lbs today, so I have some hard work ahead of me. I think getting back to a routine and schedule will be just what I need.
I think my biggest issue lately is letting little things bother me and then I stress all day. I have to learn to let things roll off my back. That is maybe why I love to run so much. I just let my cares go and run. A lot of times I pray in my head while I run and spend time with the Lord.
My goals for this week are to spend more time with the Lord to learn to destress and enjoy every minute of every day!!
I am feeling a little irritated tonight and I don't know why. So I figured if I write some random thoughts I would feel better. I don't think I am irritated about my journey, but if I don't regain focus it will hinder what I am trying to do. So, Matt and I went for a long run tonight. We are up to 2.5 miles on our neighborhood runs. I am pretty excited about how far we are running now. I just wish I could get my legs to move a little faster. I figure if I just get out there and push as much as I can, my times and distances will get much better. I am not really gonna stress over it. I started running the second week in June, and could barely make it through a 30 second run, and now I am running 2.5 miles. I feel like I have made some pretty good progress. According to my run tracker, I have logged 41 miles since the beginning of July.
My weight loss is going pretty well. I am happy that I was able to kick my plateau and continue losing. My goal is to be in "One-derland" by the Dirty Girl race in September. "One-derland" is being at a weight anywhere in the 100's. I know it seems silly but that will be an amazing feeling for me. Once I hit 199lbs, I will have lost 88 lbs altogether. I am at 222lbs today, so I have some hard work ahead of me. I think getting back to a routine and schedule will be just what I need.
I think my biggest issue lately is letting little things bother me and then I stress all day. I have to learn to let things roll off my back. That is maybe why I love to run so much. I just let my cares go and run. A lot of times I pray in my head while I run and spend time with the Lord.
My goals for this week are to spend more time with the Lord to learn to destress and enjoy every minute of every day!!
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