Saturday, December 31, 2011

One more for 2011! Bring it on 2012!!

Weight loss to date: 89 lbs

This is my last blog for 2011, so I decided to look back on the year I've had. We have had a lot of ups and downs here at our house, but never once did God leave our side.  We are going into 2012 with some trials already, but I am confident that God will always provide and we will continue to trust His plans for us.
This was a year of a few heart breaks for us. I lost my beloved Sophie girl in May, which completely devastated me. Say what you will because she was just my dog, but to me she was my best friend and some days she was the best listener I could ever ask for. I miss her like crazy, but I know God is enjoying her silly little face up in Heaven. I also lost one of my uncles this year. I think the hardest part was seeing the pain my cousins had to deal with. In the midst of the sadness, I always knew that God would prevail and bless us for being faithful. 
January was the start of a new Carla. I decided that I was not going to let my weight define me anymore and I changed my whole life. I never thought at that moment, how different my life would be a year later.  I never quit and lost 89 lbs so far.  I went from sitting on the couch ALL day, to running 5k's and working out as much as I can. I am blessed to have an amazing family and husband that push me and support me in everything. 
I am sad to see some doors closing in our lives, but I know that for every door He closes, God will open another one. He blessed me with incredible friends and introduced me to some amazing new people this year.
"Trust the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will guide your path." This has been my mantra for the last year, and it will be for the next year. I am going to put everything I have into trusting God and His plans for our lives!
Happy New Year everyone! Make 2012 the BEST year yet!!

Sunday, December 18, 2011

One-derland!! Feels so good!!

11 months into my Journey
weight loss to date:89 lbs.

I am so excited!! I finally hit "One-derland" on Wednesday of this week!  I was really hoping to make it before Christmas and it feels amazing!  What made it even better was that I keep losing putting me less than one pound away from 90 lbs. lost total since Jan 2011!  I have been doing much better this week with controling portions and fighting the urge to eat all of the sweets that come with the holidays. Well, until I ate a bunch of cookies for breakfast yesterday. LOL! It was just one of those days I gave in.  I weighed in at 198.6 yesterday. Once I hit 197 it will be 90 lbs total.  I cannot even believe I am only 11 lbs way from my major goal of 100 lbs lost!!

I am now on vacation for 2 1/2 weeks from work with Christmas and New Years around the corner. My goal for the next 2 weeks is to workout as much as I possibly can, and eat within my eating plan and calorie count. This will hopefully mean cardio every morning at the gym and then some Zumba or dance video in the evening. I feel amazing and love that I am finally out of the 200's and I plan to stay out of the 200's! 

Yesterday Matt and I ran a 3.4 mile route in the neighborhood in 37 mins and 13 seconds. I was so pleased!! I smashed my 3.1 mile record of 37 mins and 45 seconds. I am really praying to make it through the holidays and losing at least 2-3 lbs by New Years day.  I know it will take hard work and lots of will power to walk away from the yummy cookies and candy. As I always say , "Don't worry, I GOT THIS!!!"


Tuesday, December 6, 2011

To the "new" Carla from the "old" Carla

I was just sitting here watching Biggest Loser and the contestants made a video from their old self to the new self. I was in tears seeing the things they said to the new self and decided that I need to do the same. So, I am gonna take a minute to write a letter to the "new" Carla. 

I am so incredibly proud of everything you have accomplished for your health these last 11 months.  Please don't ever let yourself go back to the way it was  before. And when you feel like giving up, think about how hard it was to be 287 lbs.  Think about the struggle to do simple things like getting up off the floor and walking a couple miles.  Don't ever let yourself feel that way again. You want to have kids so bad, so please take care of yourself so that you will live a long life for those kids you will have.  You have so much more fight that you ever thought you would. When you get to that place when you feel like you can't do anymore, find someone that loves you more than you know and let them lift you up.  Think about how great it felt to run your first 5K, or finally slip into a size that you hadn't been in over 10 years.  Most importantly, never let that drive and determination die out.  You are a fighter!! You got this girl!!

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Strong is the new skinny :)

Weight loss to date: 87 lbs

I know everyone was expecting me to be in "one-derland" by now.  While I am getting closer and closer I am still not there yet.  But I realized this week that my journey is about so much more than a number.  I have literally been obsessing about the scale and the number on it for 11 months.  I got so distracted with the number that I didn't even stop to appreciate the other things I have been able to accomplish.  So, I am going to take a few minutes to be proud of what I have done. I am not usually like that, but please just let me have a moment.

Thanksgiving day Matt and I (and our awesome running buddies) ran the Turkey Trot 5K.  I woke up sick and not motivated at all, but ended up running the 5K in 37 minutes, which is a personal record for me!! I have been doing bootcamp at the gym for 8 weeks. I will never forget week one and how I pretty much wanted to cry because I couldn't do any of the exersizes.  I was beyond excited when I did over 140 push ups (on my knees) today and for the first time EVER I held a plank position on my toes, not my knees!! I am really noticing that I am getting stronger and stronger.  I am hoping to measure this week and see how many inches I lost in 4 weeks, so stay tuned!

I was mentioning to a few people at work my goal to be under 200 lbs.  They kept looking at me funny.  They were is total disbelief that I weighed 200 lbs. I automatically thought, "Oh, man I must look like I am heavier." But both ladies said they thought my scale was wrong because I look much lighter than 200 lbs.  I know it sounds like bragging, but I felt amazing when they told me that and that's when it hit me that the scale will not control how I feel anymore!!!!

I wish more people would let go of that "thing" (for me it was a scale) that holds you back from true happiness.