Weight loss to date: 87 lbs
I know everyone was expecting me to be in "one-derland" by now. While I am getting closer and closer I am still not there yet. But I realized this week that my journey is about so much more than a number. I have literally been obsessing about the scale and the number on it for 11 months. I got so distracted with the number that I didn't even stop to appreciate the other things I have been able to accomplish. So, I am going to take a few minutes to be proud of what I have done. I am not usually like that, but please just let me have a moment.
Thanksgiving day Matt and I (and our awesome running buddies) ran the Turkey Trot 5K. I woke up sick and not motivated at all, but ended up running the 5K in 37 minutes, which is a personal record for me!! I have been doing bootcamp at the gym for 8 weeks. I will never forget week one and how I pretty much wanted to cry because I couldn't do any of the exersizes. I was beyond excited when I did over 140 push ups (on my knees) today and for the first time EVER I held a plank position on my toes, not my knees!! I am really noticing that I am getting stronger and stronger. I am hoping to measure this week and see how many inches I lost in 4 weeks, so stay tuned!
I was mentioning to a few people at work my goal to be under 200 lbs. They kept looking at me funny. They were is total disbelief that I weighed 200 lbs. I automatically thought, "Oh, man I must look like I am heavier." But both ladies said they thought my scale was wrong because I look much lighter than 200 lbs. I know it sounds like bragging, but I felt amazing when they told me that and that's when it hit me that the scale will not control how I feel anymore!!!!
I wish more people would let go of that "thing" (for me it was a scale) that holds you back from true happiness.
Weight loss to date: 86 lbs
Well, I was really hoping to be in "one-derland" by now, but I am so incredibly close. I only need to lose about 1.5-2 lbs to get there. My biggest obstacle at this point is the holidays approaching. I started this journey in January after I consumed a massive amount of food from last year's holidays. I am a bit paranoid that I will totally lose all control and eat like I used to. Plus I have a whole week off for Thanksgiving break, so I may have to get my body used to a different routine for a while. Hmmm...what to do??
I decided that I need to have a plan and stick with it. So my plan is this: get up and go to the gym for a run on the treadmill M,T, and W morning. I have Zumba on T and W. For Thanksgiving day, my running buddies,Matt and I signed up for a 5K run at 9 am. I am just going to have to watch my portions and be very careful with my food choices. Sounds easy now, but we will see how bad I really want this! I would love to be at 90 lbs lost total by the end of November so I can work my hiney off to hit 100 lbs lost by January 10.
One thing I do wish I had more of is workout buddies. Seems like I am doing a lot of my workouts alone lately. I do have awesome running buddies (Pattie, Patrick, and Matt) but I often end up going to Zumba by myself. It's okay, it would just be fun to have a buddy to go with. I do have to say that our instructors are amazing and make it super fun though!
Here's to a wonderful Thanksgiving and hopefully hitting "one-derland" in a few days!
Weight loss to date: 83 lbs and counting
Just had to share this. Yesterday at work one of my co workers comes up and asks me "Hey Carla, would you ever want to carry a 5th grader around on your back all day?". In my head I'm thinking, "oh heck no!!". My response, "um...no that would be crazy!". So she then tells me to think about this: her son (a 5th grader) weighs 83 lbs. It took me a minute to figure out what she was getting at. I am down 83 lbs, which is the same weight as her son. She says, "Think about it, how hard would it be to carry a 5th grader around on your back all day? I bet you feel much better having lost a whole 5th grader!".
It just made my day to think that I actually lost the equivalent of a small person! :) So anyone working to get fit or lose a little weight, keep at it! It really does feel AMAZING!!
October 2011
weight loss to date:82 lbs in 9 1/2 months
Well, things are going better now that I got back on an eating plan. I went back to writing down all of my calories to better track it and lost 4 lbs the first week. I am getting so close to "one-derland" and losing 100 lbs total. Now I think I need to start dealing with some of the emotional stuff that comes along so I can kick some butt.
I have really been struggling to learn to love myself for who I am and not always second guess myself. I get frustrated when I can't do something right the first time, I don't know if I will ever look in the mirror and see anything but the heavy girl I was, I always think people are going to hate me if I say/do the wrong thing. I know we all have these things too, but I just can't seem to let myself enjoy this new life I have. I want to know that I worked hard and love myself for who I am. Oh well. I know it will come with time. So, until I can see myself the way God sees me, I will pray and know that He loves me just the way I am!
That's all for now. Only 5 lbs to "one-derland"!!! So, off to work out I go!!
weight loss to date:79 lbs
After getting so sick for a couple weeks, I finally got back on track this week. I even stepped up my workout routine with another Zumba class on Wednesdays and I joined bootcamp at the gym. I went in to bootcamp last Saturday as nervous as I have ever been and not really sure what to expect. I still struggle with the complex that I am and always will be the "fattest person everywhere I go". So, I went in thinking just that. While I was the biggest person there, I decided that I am not a quitter and I was going to push as hard as I could. Bootcamp is no joke. I was doing some exercises that I see on Biggest Loser and think, "Ha, I could never do that!" Never say never people!! I felt pretty good when I left, but still had that feeling that I probably looked like a total idiot because I am still so heavy. When I saw our boot camp instructor on Tuesday she totally made my whole week. She said she was so impressed with how hard I worked and had never seen anyone come to their first bootcamp and push it like I did. I went back this morning and I feel pretty great right now. I did get really frustrated though, because there were some exercises that I couldn't do. That just irritates the crap out of me!! I am the kind of person who has to be able to do everything I try and I have to do it right the first time. So, when I can't do something it pisses me off. So, I am going to practice that dumb exercise all week until I get it right!!!!
Anyway, I have had a lot of ups and downs on the scale the last few weeks. I am getting really frustrated because the weight doesn't come off as fast now as it did in the beginning. I think I just need to be more focused on better food choices and lots of workouts. I am only one pound away from 80 lbs lost total and about 9 lbs away from "one-derland". I get so upset when the scale doesn't read what I want. I guess I just have to learn to let go and just focus on being healthy.
I do have one more positive thing to share before I go. Last week a friend posted a picture saying she lost 41 lbs. I was so excited and wrote to tell her how proud I was and her response back made me cry. She said I was a huge inspiration to her and she started running because she saw that I was doing so well at it. That was a great feeling! Have a fantastic week everyone!!
Weight loss to date: 77 lbs since 1/10/11
Saturday was the Dirty Girl Mud Run I have been waiting for!! This is what all of my hard work was for (well sort of). My week leading up the the Dirty Girl was not exactly what I pictured though. Monday I woke up feeling like a truck ran me over and my throat felt like someone stabbed me with a pencil. After making it through what seemed like the longest day EVER, I went in for a Strep test. Lucky me...it was positive. So needless to say, I spend Monday night, all day Tuesday and Wednesday morning curled in a tiny ball on my couch. The doctor restricted all working out for the week and was pretty ticked off when I told him I had to do this race. So, against what I wanted, I rested all week long. In the end, it was the best choice for me.
The DGMR was the most amazing thing I have ever done. I thought I was going to go into this wanting to run the whole thing and try to beat everyone. But, it wasn't like that at all. My teammates were so wonderful and we did every single event together. My favorite obstacle was the big mud pit at the end of the race. It was awesome to have Matt and our teammates families there cheering us on. As they were chanting for us to jump in the mud, I got so excited that I just went full force! I ended up smacking my knee on the bottom and now I have a few scrapes. Let me just say...I love them!! They are my "battle wounds" LOL!! I did all of the obstacles with the exception of the 8 ft wall. I got up on the first step and totally freaked out. I am not too worried about it, but I will do it next year.
Yep, you read that right! Dirty Girl Mud Run is a go for 2012 and I AM SO THERE!!! I know my original teammates will be there and I am excited to see if we can bring in a new group to join the shenanigans.
Weight loss to date: still 72 lbs.
I guess the good news is that I haven't gained any weight, the bad news is that I hit another stupid plateau. I am not really worried about it, but it annoys me that I am working really hard and keep flat lining. So, this week I decided that I am going to quit drinking Diet Coke unless we go out to eat. I have a serious addiction to that stuff, it's just not right! lol I think it went really well and I only had Diet Coke if we went out (which was only over the weekend). The great thing for me was that I was drinking a ton of water and felt less tired. So my new goal is to start this week with no more Diet Coke at all. I didn't get in as much exercise as I was hoping this week. The heavy rain really put a stop to evening runs for 2 days. But, this is a new week and I am ready for a new challenge!! I am going to try and get to Zumba Tues, Wed, and Thurs. I am also going to try to run another 5K distance on Monday and a short run with Matt before Zumba on Wednesday.
This coming Saturday is the Dirty Girl Mud Run 5K. I am pretty excited to get out there and see what this is all about. I feel pretty confident that I will be able to do all of the obstacles and running. My team is pretty awesome. My friend that I used to teach with at Webster is on my team, and friend from church and a new friend that I haven't met yet. I think we will rock it!!
I have been praying a lot lately about using my weight loss journey to help other women. I know God is calling me to use this part of my life to minister to other women, I am just not sure how or what he will lead me to. At my Zumba class this week I was able to talk to two women about my journey and give them some tips and tricks. One of the ladies said "Oh well I've lost 11 lbs, but that's not much". Are you kidding me?? That is the start of something great! It was so great to give her encouragement and ideas to help her keep going. So for those of you reading this, please pray that God will show me his plans for this and that I will be a faithful servant that follows wherever he leads!
